Every time I reflect, I will remind myself about how far I've come, how brave I have become in choosing myself, choosing to protect my boundaries, choosing to never accept less than what I deserve. Sentimentality has clouded my judgement but experience has allowed me to sniff out gaslighting and manipulation. Bringing my ex into the picture, self-victimizing and antagonizing behavior... How did I even put up with that the first time it came out?
The moment you posted photos of your ex's cat to spite me was the moment I should have called you out for your behavior and stopped it in its tracks but I allowed it to happen because I thought you were going through stuff. Now every time I wonder if I made the right choice in asking for a timeout to enforce my boundaries, I know I made the right choice because I have given enough and I deserve better than a effortless relationship from someone who offers no value, who only takes and never gives, and who can't even love yourself because of the anger and darkness within you.
The memories I wear is a badge of honor for the moment I chose to love myself.
Past trauma is valid
Having feelings is valid
Anger is valid
Making others go down with you isn't
Making excuses for bad behavior isn't
I will forgive you for your feelings
Not your lack of accountability
Having a heart is a mortal necessity
Love is easy
Unless you allow your darkness to consume you
And your anger to dictate your days
Never allow anything other than love and forgiveness to take foot in your life
And your anger to dictate your days
Never allow anything other than love and forgiveness to take foot in your life
