Recently received an accidental email from a law school in the U.K. inviting me to visit their open house as an "student with an offered place". It brought me back to 2012 again, where I just received my I.B. results and possibilities were endless in terms of where I'd end up working in the far-off horizon.
Fast forward to today, where I am studying a business degree in a local university; where I spend my free time dreaming about a successful career as an actor singer host, where it somehow seems that I'll be working a 9-5, low paying job in some firm in the near future.
In my mind are what-ifs. If I had somehow succumbed to reality, and spent all my time working on my formulae, I might somehow more than scrape through this degree and perhaps end up in a high flier job, with a comfortable future to look forward to.
Maybe if I had said yes to my offer, took a loan, and went to that faraway place to carve a pedestal for myself.
Or even now, perhaps I should cease dreaming, and focus solely on my academics, and maybe... just maybe I'll graduate with a good class honors.
But in my heart is a child, that aches for life to be lived. A child who wants to see the world through a kaleidoscope, to see colours when there are none.
A child who dreams about living, who lives through dreams.
We actors are all dreamers, and there's nothing but life to stop us.
Fast forward to today, where I am studying a business degree in a local university; where I spend my free time dreaming about a successful career as an actor singer host, where it somehow seems that I'll be working a 9-5, low paying job in some firm in the near future.
In my mind are what-ifs. If I had somehow succumbed to reality, and spent all my time working on my formulae, I might somehow more than scrape through this degree and perhaps end up in a high flier job, with a comfortable future to look forward to.
Maybe if I had said yes to my offer, took a loan, and went to that faraway place to carve a pedestal for myself.
Or even now, perhaps I should cease dreaming, and focus solely on my academics, and maybe... just maybe I'll graduate with a good class honors.
But in my heart is a child, that aches for life to be lived. A child who wants to see the world through a kaleidoscope, to see colours when there are none.
A child who dreams about living, who lives through dreams.
We actors are all dreamers, and there's nothing but life to stop us.
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